Title: Not A Day Goes By
Category: Angst/Drama/Romance (Dan/Jan) Contest fic for the Daniel Janet August Challenge
Rating: PG, for mild swearing
Season/Sequel Info: Starts out in six and moves into seven
Spoilers: Meridian, Chimera, and Fallen, and Singularity.
Summary: Daniel chose to ascend, and leaves Janet alone, but when he comes back things aren't how they left it, and Janet makes a mistake that may result in never seeing Daniel again.
Disclaimer: I don't own. Though I wish I did. Though if I did own them, then I could do whatever I want with them, though isn't that what I'm doing with the fics? But I don't own them....woah! I confused me!
Assilem's Note: Yay challenge fic! First off, I would like to thank Secret Art for betaing this for me and doing such a wonderful job. Neri Maxwell, for a certain line. I hope you all like it:)
~*Not A Day Goes By*~
Janet Frasier stood at the front of the crowd, who were clad in black and dress blues. Today especially of all days wasn't the best for anyone. Everyone around her did nothing but stand there, tears running down cheeks. Janet looked beside her; Jack O'Neill had one arm securely around Sam Carter, and his other around her daughter, Cassandra. Both women were crying and clinging to Jack for thier lives as they said thier final goodbye.
If he had been alive, none of this would have been happening. She wouldn't have been standing there, watching her lover being buried. Silent tears streamed down her face, as her mascara started to run. This was just too much; all she wanted was to be back in his arms, and not having to think that any of the past few weeks ever happened. God how she wished that the past weeks hadn't transpired!
Letting tears roll down her checks, she allowed her hands to rest on her abdomen her hands rest on her abdomen...she didn't even get the chance to tell him...tell him that she was pregnant...and now she was going to be a single mother...again.
The priest closed his bible and said a few more words. As far as Janet was concerned, whatever the Priest was saying was nothing of importance, nothing to describe HER Daniel.
The flag was gently rested in front of the gravestone, as Janet almost fell. One arm wrapped around her, preventing her from falling. One arm, the arm of the man Daniel lost his life saving. The arm of Jonas Quinn held her from falling to the ground.
Slowly people started to drift away; not wanting to remember the pain that was caused today. Those left standing were those of Daniel's closest friends; five Air Force Officers and three aliens.
Teal'c, standing in his robes, the hood covering his gold emblem, standing strongest of them all. Not that the Jaffa showed emotion, just stood, staring at the tombstone marked for his friend...one of his best friends.
Jonas Quinn, clad in a black suit stared sombrely at the grave. He felt so bad for everything, holding Janet so she wouldn't fall, the alien bowed his head in respect.
Cassandra Frasier, dressed in the dress Daniel had given her for her birthday, lay in Jack's arms, crying. The teenager didn't understand it, she had lost her entire family before, and when she finally gets another one, she loses them too. She didn't know what to do, or how to stop crying.
Major Samantha Carter, in her dress blues, clung to her CO for support. This time Daniel was really dead. Not like the other times, this time he was gone...forever. Her 'baby brother' was gone, and there was no way of getting him back.
Colonel Jack O'Neill held two of his favourite girls tightly. Cassie crying into his dress uniform, while Sam buried her face in the crook of his neck. He stayed strong though, for them. His Space-Monkey was gone. No way of getting him back...he died in the line of duty, helping a race of people that didn't deserve to die. But now, his 'baby brother' was gone...and never coming back.
As for Janet...nothing was evident in her mind. It was just a helpless blur, a part of her was lost and she was never going to get it back...Never.
A week later, for the seventh day in a row, Janet spent her morning in the bathroom throwing up everything she did and didn't eat. A result of morning sickness and missing Daniel...she never got to tell Daniel the news.
She had been so excited when she found out. Daniel would have been ecstatic, a little flabbergasted a first, but that is just Daniel. A bumbling idiot at times, but a damn cute idiot.
Holding her stomach Janet looked around her bathroom, she still had Daniel's comb lying on the counter and his toothbrush beside hers...they were never moving.
"Mom, are you okay?" Cassie asked walking into the bathroom, to see her mother leaning over the toilet.
"I'm fine honey. Don't you worry okay?" Janet smiled standing up. Cassie nodded and helped her mother.
"I'm sure if Daniel knew he wouldn't have stuck his head in that thing," Cassie said trying to cheer her mother up.
"Honey, Daniel would have done it anyway, he was saving people," Janet replied as she brushed her teeth. She promised she wouldn't cry in front of her daughter...she needed to be strong for her.
"Mom...he loved you. And I guarantee that if he was alive, he would be right here," Cassie said holding back tears. Janet smiled softly and brought her daughter in for a hug. The two stood there, hugging each other for the next few minutes, until the phone rang.
"I'll get it, get ready for school," Janet instructed. Cassie nodded and closed the door to the bathroom after Janet walked out.
"Hello Frasier residents? Oh, hi Sam...yeah sure...yeah, Cassie has her exams today...yeah. In an hour or so at Claire's? No problem...I need to talk to you anyway...no, nothing happened...nothing bad at least. Listen, I have to get Cassie out of here...See you in an hour...Love you too. Bye." Janet smiled hanging up the phone, as Cassandra walked out with a towel on her head.
"Who was on the phone?"
"Sam," Janet replied taking a sip of her orange juice.
"Are you going to tell her?" Cassie asked.
"Yes Cass. You almost ready to go?" Janet asked. Cassie nodded.
"I just gotta get something," Cassie said quickly leaving the room.
Janet looked around, and sighed. In five short months her whole world would change. She wouldn't just be a single mother to a teenage daughter; she would be a single mother to a teenage daughter and a newborn. And where would the father be? Well he would be dead. Not even her husband was dead, he hadn't even been her fiancÚ, but her boyfriend...lover...he had been Daniel.
Wiping a tear that rolled down her cheek, Janet grabbed her purse and walked out behind Cassandra.
Smarten up Janet. You can't go on like this. You have a baby to think of now! Janet thought as she locked the door. You have too much now Jan. Don't waste it.
"Janet!" Sam smiled walking up to her friend and giving her a quick hug. "How are you doing?"
"Could be better. It's only been a week, and I still don't know if I'll be able to go back to normal," Janet confessed sitting down opposite of her friend.
"You will. I promise. It's been hard on all of us," Sam explained reaching for Janet's hand and giving it a slight squeeze.
"I know Sam. I know. Listen I have to tell you something," Janet said softly.
"What is it?"
"I'm pregnant. About three months or so," Janet said softly, avoiding her friend's eyes.
"Janet, are you serious?" Sam asked. Janet nodded, not lifting her head up. "Oh my god Janet! That's wonderful," Sam beamed.
"I suppose you could say that," Janet mumbled.
"Janet, did he know?" Sam asked softly, Janet instantly knowing who she was referring to.
"No. I was going to tell him the day he, the day he jumped..." Janet trailed off.
"Oh my god," Sam whispered. "What are you going to do?"
"I'm going to keep the baby, the baby will be the only thing I have left of Daniel," Janet explained, as tears threatened to fall.
"Janet, if you need anything, you know I'll be right there."
"I know Sam. I can't do this by myself," Janet whispered.
"You won't have to. The Colonel, Teal'c, General Hammond, and myself will be there for you, every step of the way," Sam promised.
"Janet?" a male voice said hopefully. Janet's head shot up and looked into the eye of her former husband.
"Hi," Janet said softly, reaching for Sam's hand for support.
"How are you doing?"
"Pretty shitty," Janet said as yet again tears threatened to fall.
"What's the matter Janie?" James asked. Sam watched Janet's face turn white; she quickly got up and basically ran to the woman's washroom.
"Janet! What's the matter with Janet?" James asked turning to Sam.
"She just went through a really rough time in her life," Sam explained, making sure not to indulge in any information.
"What happened?" James asked.
"A lot of stuff actually, but I don't think I should be the one to tell you," Sam said truthfully.
"That's fine. By the way, I'm James Peters, Janet's ex-husband."
"I know who you are. Janet has told me everything," Sam explained. "I'm Doctor Major Sam Carter, Janet's best friend."
"Army like Janie huh?"
"Air force," Sam said sharply, remembering the time when Hathor had imprisoned her and the rest of the women on the base, and Janet had basically told her the story of this man.
"All the same."
"James, what are you doing here?" Janet asked returning from the bathroom.
"I'm in town for a meeting, and I needed to do some shopping. Why are you here? The last I heard you were in Iowa."
"I was transferred six years ago to the Cheyenne Mountain Complex," Janet explained. She still didn't understand why her ex-husband of all people was there. If anything made her week worse than it already was, this was the man to do it.
"Oh. Janie listen..."
"Don't call me Janie. You lost that right the night I found you in bed with another woman!" Janet said sharply, keeping her voice low so not to attract unwanted attention.
"Fine. Janet, I thought I would say hi. See how you're doing, just see you once more," James explained.
"Fine. You saw me. You know how I'm doing. Now, never see me again," Janet said before pulling Sam away. Sam reacted quickly and walked in sync with her friend.
"You okay Jan?" Sam asked placing a hand on her friend's shoulder.
"I will be. I just can't put up with James' shit at the moment. He hurt me too much, and now with everything else in my life, I just can't deal with it," Janet explained as silent tears slipped out of her eyes.
"Janet, come here," Sam said leading Janet over to a bench and taking her into a hug. Janet leaned into her friend and held on with her life. The first time she was able to cry in a week, and it was in a mall. "Sssh. It'll be okay Jan," Sam whispered holding her own tears back.
People walked by looking strangely at the two. It wasn't every day that two women sat crying in a mall.
A few minutes later, Janet pulled away, her mascara officially gone now, and wiped her eyes.
"I'm sorry," she whispered.
"There is nothing to be sorry about," Sam comforted. "You cared for Daniel, we all know that."
"I loved Daniel. He was my last chance to have a life Sam. My last chance at falling in love," Janet confessed looking down at the ring on her right hand. "Daniel gave this to me for our anniversary. He said even though we weren't married, I deserved an anniversary. So he bought me a ring," Janet said softly admiring the simple ruby and diamond ring on her finger.
"He loved you Jan. You know he did," Sam said softly.
"Come on. We'll do some shopping. That'll cheer both of us up," Sam smiled standing up, pulling the petite woman with her.
"Okay, I need to get some maternity clothes that don't make me look like a whale," Janet smiled, cheering up a bit.
"Let's shop!" Sam smiled brightly as the two walked through the mall. Sam and Janet spent the rest of the afternoon shopping, buying things for both themselves and the coming baby. Along with a present for each of the boys; they bought Teal'c a new hat, Jonas a shirt that said "I'm With Him", and Jack a new game for his gameboy. Soon the women were getting hungry and headed off to get ice cream.
"You know I can't decide what kind I want," Janet smiled looking down at all the flavours of ice cream. They had stepped into Laura Secords for ice cream and now were debating on what to get.
"I know what you mean. Okay...I think I'm going to go with Peanut Butter and Banana Sandwich, with Pecan and Rum on top," Sam smiled eyeing the ice cream
"Oh that sounds good. But I think I want mango punch and hazel nut coffee," Janet smiled as she watched her server put the ice cream in the bowl. Janet's hazel eyes widening in anticipation, stupid cravings Janet mused.
"Here you two are. Have a great day," the young woman smiled handing Janet and Sam their ice cream.
"You too. So Jan, where to now?"
"I think we should go lingerie shopping. You need to have something sexy if you and the Colonel are going on that date," Janet teased.
"It's not a date. We're just getting together for dinner...as friends...at his house..." Sam said running her sentence long and stuttering.
"I'm sure. I see the way you two look at each other, those long gazes," Janet smiled.
"Janet!" Sam said as the two woman sat down to eat their ice cream.
"I'm just an observer. Though I would encourage you to go for it," Janet smiled cheekily.
"Jan, he's my boss. You know the regs," Sam countered.
"I know them. I think they're stupid. But I know them none the less," Janet smiled. "You two are perfect for each other."
"Does everyone know this besides us?" Sam asked with a small laugh.
"Oh yes. Sam we have a pool going, on when you two are going to get together," Janet smiled.
"You're kidding...Right?" Sam asked, feeling quite embarrassed.
"Oh no. I think we're up to three thousand now. Even General Hammond is in on it."
"Oh God," Sam sighed leaned back into the bench she was sitting on.
"So, when are you two going to get together?" Janet asked, eyeing her friend.
"I don't know Janet. What happens will happen," Sam explained.
"Just tell me as soon as you two get together. I got the baby's college fund riding on you two," Janet joked. Sam burst out laughing and continued to eat her ice cream.
"So little baby Jackson-Fraiser's entire career is based on whether the Colonel and I get together?" Sam asked with a hint of teasing in her voice, her eyes sparkling with amusement.
"You know it," Janet laughed.
"What did Cassie say when you told her?" Sam asked switching topics.
"After the initial 'Ewww' phase, it went to 'gross' and then to 'yes'. She's excited that she's going to have a baby sister or brother," Janet smiled letting her hand rest gently on her abdomen that was already swollen a bit. Sam watched Janet's eyes get a glazed over look as tears pooled in her hazel-brown eyes. Sam laid a gentle and on her friend's stomach and just sat there in comfortable silence.
After two weeks off from work, Janet finally made it back. For the past fourteen days, not a day had gone by that she didn't think of Daniel. As the days went on and on it was getting harder for her to remember what he looked like. Harder for her to remember just what he smelt like...tasted like...she was forgetting the essence of Daniel.
"Doctor Frasier, are you aright?" a young Jonas Quinn asked seeing the base CMO in tears as she leaned on her desk. Janet looked up, her mascara was running and she had black streaks down her cheeks. "Hey don't cry, come here," Jonas said pulling the woman into a hug. Janet clung to the man sobbing her heart out.
Jonas just held her. It was something he felt he had to do...it wasn't the first time that the woman had found comfort in his arms. Jonas gently stroked her hair and held her.
"Jonas..." Janet managed to get out. "I miss him so much!" Janet sobbed holding onto the man tighter.
"I know," Jonas whispered pressing his nose into Janet's hair.
Jack stood at the door with a puzzled look on his face. Why was Jonas taking the place where Daniel should have been? Countless times he had stood in the exact same place and watched Daniel comfort Janet. And now he was the man who was inveterately responsible for Daniel's ascension.
Stepping back, Jack sighed, and started to walk off. It was to soon for this...way to soon. He stopped in his tracks when he heard the doctor sob again.
"He's gone!" She sobbed harder. Jack felt a prang in his stomach and shook his head before walking off. He needed to see Sam...She could always make him feel better.
Jonas didn't say anything but he held his friend. She didn't need anyone else but a friend now....that was all she was going need, someone to hold onto, someone to cry on their shoulder...someone to be there for her. And Jonas was going to do all that.
"Carter, you busy?" Jack asked popping into his favourite scientist's office. Sam slowly looked up, her eye swollen with tears, and any sign of make-up was running down her cheeks. "Hey, c'mere," Jack whispered taking Sam into his arms.
"He's gone," Sam sobbed. Jack sighed and nuzzled his face into the crock of her neck.
"Ssssh," Jack whispered holding her tighter.
"And Janet is going to have a baby...and he's gone," Sam cried. Jack stood still, did he hear her right? Good ole Doc Napoleon Frasier is going to have a baby? That cant be right....the Doc wasn't seeing anyone...that he knew off....who's baby was this? Jack was thoroughly confused, but he helped his second in command; she was more important at the moment.
A few minutes later, Sam pulled away, still sniffling.
"You okay?" Jack asked softly, looking at her with concern. Sam nodded and wiped her eyes again.
"I'm sorry sir, its just..." Sam trailed off.
"I know. What do you say me, you, Teal'c and the Doc go out for dinner? You know spend some time together?" Jack asked looking at Sam with tenderness in his eyes.
"That would be great sir," Sam said softly, not looking directly in his eyes.
"Good. Carter...Sam...Samantha, every thing will turn out, I promise," Jack said softly, taking her hand in his own. Giving it a squeeze he dropped it and left the lab. Leaving Sam to wonder why she always broke down in his arms.
"Doc? Hey you okay?" Jack asked walking into Janet's office, and seeing the petite doctor with tears in her eyes.
"Yes. I'm fine," Janet lied quickly wiping her tears. "What can I do for you sir?"
"Just wondering if you and Cass wanted to come out to dinner tonight. You know, me, Teal'c, Sam, you, and Cass just having dinner...you know," Jack asked shoving his hands in his pockets.
"That would be great. We would love to come. I know Cassie misses everyone," Janet said softly flipping through the folders on her desk.
"Janet, are you sure you're okay? I mean you have this intense glow about you," Jack smiled as Janet's head shot up.
"You know?" She asked looking at him softly. Jack nodded and sat down on her desk.
"Sam blurted it out while she was crying," Jack supplied.
"I don't show much do I?" Janet asked looking down at her already expanded stomach.
"Not much. Have you told Hammond?"
"Not yet," Janet sighed. "Colonel, please don't tell anyone, I'm not ready for them to know yet," Janet pleaded.
"Sure Janet. As long as you tell Hammond soon."
"I will. Sir, thank you," Janet said giving a soft smile.
"Any day Doc. My house, sixish," Jack smiled before leaving the room. Janet sighed and looked at her stomach.
"Well baby, I think we need to tell General Hammond," Janet said to herself. Standing up, she laid her hand on her stomach and walked out of her office and made her way down to the General's office
Stopping just outside the office, Janet took a deep breath and knocked on the door. She heard the familiar "come in" from the General as she opened the door.
"Doctor Frasier, what can I do for you?" The general asked standing up.
"Well sir, I'm about four months pregnant now, and I thought I should let you know," Janet said point-blankly. "Also, to request some maternity leave within the next two months."
"Certainly Doctor," Hammond said quickly, but thoroughly confused. When had his Chief Medical Officer become pregnant? "Doctor, in light of this new information, I would suggest you cut down on the hours you spend here on base."
"Yes sir. If you don't mind sir, I would like to take the rest of the day off," Janet asked, feeling a bit sick.
"Of course. I'll inform Doctor Warner, you go home and rest," Hammond smiled. Janet nodded and walked out.
*Already two pm and Janet was already exhausted , taking a nap sounded wonderful at the moment. Sleep for an hour, go get Cassie, come home and help her with her homework, head to the Colonel's, go home and go to bed. That sounded very appetizing at the moment.
Within thirty minutes, after forgetting her ID card, Janet made it out of the mountain and started on her way home. Then it hit her. She had another ultrasound today. Turning around, she started towards the OB/GYN's office.
You have been working too hard Janet, you forgot! Janet scolded herself. Picking up her cell phone she quickly dialled the base, she wanted Sam to be there.
After going through all the proper channels, Janet was finally put through to Sam's lab.
"Carter," Sam said picking up her phone.
"Sam, its Janet. I forgot I have an ultrasound today. Do you think you could come? Cassie is in school and I don't want to do this alone..." Janet asked as she drove down the streets of Colorado Springs.
"Sure. Where?" Sam asked as she started to put things away.
"Academy Hospital. Can you be there in thirty?" Janet asked hopefully.
"Yup. But I have to hang up now if I'm going to make it, and have time to bribe the Colonel to cover for me," Sam pointed out. Janet laughed and nodded to herself.
"See you in a bit."
"Yup!" Sam smiled before hanging up. Janet sighed and threw her phone on the passenger seat.
"Okay Janet. You know its going to be cold," the doctor smiled and started to apply the green/blue gel to Janet's stomach.
"See Jan, this is a reason I'm never going to get pregnant," Sam teased as she watched her best friend shiver under the gel. "This, and the pain of labour and pushing a eight pound baby out of my uterus," Sam concluded.
"It's all worth it Sam," Janet smiled as the doctor slid the small device over her stomach. "See," Janet beamed focussing on the screen.
"That Janet, is your baby. Well it is without an doubt a girl," the doctor smiled. Janet grinned and looked at Sam, who was memorized by the baby projected on the screen.
"Sam?" Janet asked breaking Sam from her gaze.
"She's gorgeous," Sam mumbled.
"She is..." Janet smiled wiping a tear.
"The boys are going to be ecstatic," Sam mumbled squeezing Janet's hand.
"Well Janet, it looks like your name list just got shorter," the doctor smiled "Now you only have girls and either names," the young woman joked. Janet laughed and nodded.
"Now here is baby Frasier, and don't be afraid to call if you have any problems. I know you're a doctor, but you aren't a OB/GYN."
"I know. I'll see you next month Claire, and thanks for taking me on as your patient," Janet smiled hugging her friend.
"Anything for my Janet. Next time bring the father, I would love to meet him," Claire smiled handing Janet the picture of the baby. Janet immediately tensed up and a look of utter sorrow appeared on her face. Tears welled up and Janet quickly turned around and picked up her coat.
"He died..." Janet said softly. "A month ago," Janet added. Sam hugged her stomach, as she tried her hardest not to cry. "That's why Cassie has come...."
"I'm so sorry Janet, I didn't mean to..." Claire said softly. Janet turned around and nodded.
"I know. It's still hard," Janet admitted. "I have to get going. I need to get my daughter from school."
"Of course. I'll see you later," Claire said watching her friend and Sam walk out of the office. Janet gave a small wave and disappeared.
On to Part 2